Rough, Rough, Rough Demos

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These are the Rough, Rough, Rough Demos.
Minimal knowledge in musicianship and recording.
More songs are added when they are recorded.
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released January 17, 2012

J.J. Hameister writes most of these songs and performs most of the instruments. Occasionally when he can coerce someone else to perform they take part too.

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Songs written and performed by J.J. Hameister and sometimes others!

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Track Name: Follow Through (Jan 2012)
Since I was a kid I learned never to put a full effort into anything
If you got a problem you can just wait it out and it'll solve itself eventually

Now I've gotten older and I can see things have changed for me
All my second chances are gone and my luck has run empty

I can hear the resounding chorus of everyone telling me

(Chorus)
You got the heart but you don't got the follow through
You know as well as I there's no one else to blame but you

All those years of apathy and coasting by have finally come to a close
My debts have all come due and for it I've got nothing to show

From this reverie I have been so rudely awoke
Just as my resolve had arrived soon enough it has been broke

I can hear the resounding chorus of everyone telling me

You could do great things if you wanted to
You could be something great if you wanted to
It doesn't seem like you want to
Why don't you want this as bad as you do?

I can hear the resounding chorus of everyone telling me

(Chorusx2)
Track Name: PANIC (Feb 2012)
You're telling me about this new thing you've got going on
On the outside I'm a supportive friend, on the inside I'm all gone
I can feel this jealousy bubbling up in my chest

(Chorus)
Panic
And I can't stop now
I would if I knew how
I try to think of this rationally but my brain exaggerates to the worst degree
And I cannot take this now

I try to imagine my life without you inhabiting it
It terrifies me even though I know we're done, it's through, it finished
You know I've always been the type to have trouble letting go

(Chorus)

My brain, it dwells on things it shouldn't
And I'm only succeeding in making myself more lonely
This crushing in my chest persists
And it won't go away for anything
'cause I'm having a hard time believing that the worlds not gonna end with you not around

(Chorus)
Track Name: Boundless Grace (Apr 2012)
For so long I was lost I had no motivation
I was looking for anything to end this desperation
Out of the proverbial blue I met these two
Their debut in my life was something long overdue

They took control and turned everything around
There's so much good to be seen when I stop staring at the ground

(Chorus)
They've been an enormous boost to my self esteem
I'm not afraid to admit that I need
Debbie and LaDonna

Without them I would be nothing at all

(Chorus)
Track Name: Ad Nauseum (Jun 2012)
Just once I want to have control
over the words that come out of my mouth
To not be dictated by my own apprehension

But in my head I go through each scenario ad nauseum and I only stop once all hope is lost or the chance is long gone

(chorus)
The difference between action and nonaction is a strength that I don't have
I'll opt out of participating and overthink instead

Just once I want to be the guy
Who gets everything right
Who effortlessly navigates through social interactions

But every time I'm caught off guard I reel away from everything and I only stop when all hope is lost or the chance is long gone

(chorus)
Track Name: The Furthest Thing (Sep 2013)
During her set all that I can do it think, and overthink of what I'm gonna say
'Cause all I want to do is simply let her know how much her music means to me
Without coming across as an idiot or a creep
She's just a person there's no need to freak out
Keep telling myself there's nothing to worry about
But then her eyes meet mine

(prechorus)
Suddenly and simultaneously every fiber of my being is
telling me to leave and burning with an unyielding self loathing

(chorus)
Every silence is excruciating
I can tell she is trying hard
To accomodate for my inability
(Just end the conversation)
To assemble a coherent thought
(Turn around and go)

I had things to say 30 seconds ago, I swear I did, I swear
Not that I really expected to seem well-versed or debonair
I just don't want to come across as an idiot or a creep
She's just a person there's no need to freak out
Keep telling myself there's nothing to worry about
But then her eyes meet mine

(prechorus)
(chorus)

Luckily, Lauren O'Connell will not remember me
Not with all the places she goes and the people that she meets
It's a small comfort to know that I
Will be the furthest thing from her mind.
Track Name: 25! (Sep 2013)
I walked two miles in the rain in a suit
my feet torn up from my father's shoes
receipts and cards tumble out of my pocket
to the floor of the station, I still don't have a wallet
up a flight of stairs to Harold Square
the umbrellas of New York take up too much air
so we just walk real slow at double-arms length in unison

My mom dragged me to the doctor today
I've had a cough for a month and it won't go away
I've been sleeping on floors for three hours a day
and I got no insurance so she has to pay
I can't talk to my friends 'cause I'm embarrassed
that I keep sliding by down, I keep getting depressed

We got our ideals but no way to achieve them
We got our degrees but got no means to use it
We're swimming in debt with no way to surmount it

We've got 30 bucks so we spent it on whiskey
We've got credit cards so we got a new TV
We've got mobile phones but no minutes so text me

Get out of my way because
I'm 25 and I still act like I'm ten!
I'm 25 and I never learn from my mistakes
I make them again and again and again...

We swallow our pride over piles of problems
We whine and complain but we don't try to solve them
We're looking for answers like nobody's got them

Get out of my way because
I'm 25 and I still act like I'm ten damn years old
I'm 25 and I still act like I'm ten damn years old!
Track Name: A Matter of Time (October 2013)
the more time I stick around it seems/the more damage that I do/
my past failures or my future mistakes/is likely how I'll see you/
I beg my stupid desperate heart to allow me some space/for my sake and theirs/

yeah you're enamored by me now but it's only a matter of time/
you'll get to know me, my charm will wear off/
and your misplaced attraction will fall by the wayside/
you'll get frustrated and you'll get bored/ then you'll up and leave/
don't be so sure of me/

(chorus)
so please don't try to save me/I'm so far beyond gone/
no please don't try to save me/I am not your problem I've been my own all along/

I'll tiptoe the line treading carefully not to cross to either side/
knowing full well no matter what I choose I will end up the bad guy/
I'll sabotage every connection I struggle to make/too tired to keep it alive/

(chorus)

I will not make a move but if you do I will not stop you/
guaranteed not for the right reasons/but I will let you/I can deal with regret later/